What If?

The ever so famous "What if"? It has been a long time since I pondered thid last time, but today I was lying in bed thinking about it yet again. How different life could have been had I done something else, maybe on a particular day or in a particular moment, or with my life in general. What if I had chosen to really write that book I always wanted to write? What if I had taken that chance and spoken to that girl in the bar 5 years ago? What if I had pulled the tigger and killed someone when I was serving overseas?

There is and will always be these kind of questions. And what can we do about it? Well, for one, you know that all the choices you made so far in your life shaped who you are today. Looking back, I could probably have been richer, more famous or perhaps even some sort of star. But to be honest, I am who I am because of what I have done, and I am proud of it. Of course there is things I have done I am not particularily proud of, but they still shaped the man I am today.

Some, perhaps, do not feel the same way. Some may feel that life should have been different, and they should have made better choices in the past. To that, i can only say what the wise men said and learn from your mistakes. It is never too late to live out your dream, to get known for a your work or be the best in the sport you're competing in. This is the best thing about the choices in the past, don't you see? You've learned what not to do. And most importantly, most of the things you could have done in the past, you can still do today.

To make a better example, I always wanted to write a novel. For the past ten years, I've wanted to write a book poeple would know me by. Not fame, not the fortune, but to regonize me as the writer. For many years, I always thought "what if I wrote that damned book, I wonder where I would be today". Well, it not too late.

And someday you will see my name written as the author of a book.


Never think the choice it not yours. Carpe diem!